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some rules are made. [17 Nov 2009|12:25am] janabee.tumblr.com torpedojones.tumblr.com food porn. life blog. livejournal is dead. i. am. happy.

some rules are made. [19 Aug 2009|02:16am] I don't write because I don't have much to say. I dislike complaining on the internet because I seem whiny. I dislike talking about how awesome things are now because it makes me feel like I'm coming off as pompous. I started a food blog over on tumblr. It's basically an extension of my food porn album on Facebook. janabee.tumblr.com I'll probably hold onto this for memories/communities sake but I doubt I'll be posting very often anymore. I am working on some things (nothing is EVER perfect, no matter how good things get) and trying to get lots of things into shape. 1- my body. My weight will stop fluctuating. I will stay healthy and stop binging on junk just because I can. 2- my art. I moved out here to focus on it and damnit, I'm gonna pick up everything again. Sewing, knitting, stenciling, writing, ALL OF IT. Because I have the means and the talent and the time. And why not. 3- my bicycle. It needs work and love. 4- my debt. It needs to get paid off one way or another, even if it's a little bit at a time. I refuse to be living paycheck to paycheck anymore. I'm not 18. This is not the first time I've lived on my own. 5- fixing up the car. I'm going to dump money into it and go on a road trip. Probably west to see Jamie or south to see Jimmy. And one day I will go west all the way across to visit home. Before I die, I will visit all 48 states. This sounds more like a New Year's post but it's just a reaffirmation of things in my head. See you around.

some rules are made. [05 Aug 2009|11:58pm] Went to the Humane Society today with Evan, just to look around cus I used to do that back home and I missed seeing lots of animals. Ended up walking out with a kitty. His name is Bandit and he's semi-special needs (he has IBD which is like IBS for cats) but he's super rad and he's part Persian! Here's his Petfinder post: http://www.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=14227643 He's been chilling under the bed since we brought him home but he's so nonchalant about Torpedo - she's more pissed at him. He didn't meow once on the ride from the shelter to the house. Tomorrow night we might go see Joee Irwin spin and that's exciting too. My car is working again and I have a huge debt to pay off but at least I cant get to work and back. My boss said she'll schedule me at 40 hours for a few weeks so I can make the money to pay E back. Things get bad and things get good again. Or at least they get alright.

some rules are made. [28 Jul 2009|08:00pm] Boston friends came and went. Got to the coast to see Haystack Rock from the Goonies. Pretty awesome. Worked three overnights and slept not a whole lot. Supposed to be at the fourth right now but the car wouldn't start last night. Had to get it towed from Tigard to the house at 4am. Still won't start and don't have any money to fix it. Missed the bus this morning by 5 minutes. Didn't get a ride to work so I'm home. Hopefully I'll pull my shit together by Friday when I have to be back at work. Thinking about trying to transfer to a store closer to home (which would probably mean getting demoted and taking a paycut) just so I can get to work easily. That way I can sell the car and just bike. We'll see what happens. Wish my credit didn't suck so I could just buy a new-used car. Oh well. Gotta make some sacrifices to live the dream I guess. Selling some artwork and thinking about selling some of my Dunnys and other toys. It's easy to think I could give up and go back but I refuse to take the easy way out. There's nothing left for me in New Hampshire and I never want to go back, even if I have to struggle to stay out here.

some rules are made. [12 Jul 2009|02:35pm] Ack, things have been so busy. We moved and I've been working a lot and everything is everywhere. We are FINALLY getting settled in though, things are unpacked and cleaned and going well. I was a little apprehensive but I like this place more and more. My roommates are neat people and the house dog warmed up to me a lot. I gave Niko a bath yesterday after several warnings that I might need help or that it might be hard and he was fine. Just call me the puppy whisperer. Torpedo is adjusting amazingly well too. Kickball today and it'll be nice even though it looks like rain. We got the internet set up and got Netflix and pretty much haven't left the couch at all. I've been cooking a lot again (already!) so I really won't complain. Taco dip and bruschetta and pasta and all sorts of yummy things. We have company coming next week, some friends of Evan's from Boston. Which is good for him but totally lame for me because no one has plans to come visit me and I've been here for six months vs his two. There aren't many friends of mine left to visit me anyway. Uhm, yeah that's about all. Not much has happened other than watching insane amounts of movies and stuff. Finally got into Jericho and we're addicted. At the rate we are watching it we'll probably finish the series tomorrow!

2 intentions to break -  some rules are made. [24 Jun 2009|06:01pm] I'm not really sure if anyone still actually reads this. Does the general public still even use Livejournal? Things have been well, I finally got caught up on rest and cleaning and laundry from the trip to NH. Everything was backed up and messed up but I'm getting into the groove again, thank goodness. I've also been trying to cut my coffee intake in half daily and so far it's been a struggle (I'm a big grouch at work most of the time) but it'll get easier. Once we move I'll invest in a coffee pot and that will help save money. Took Desi to IKEA the other day, it was her first time! Bought some fun, semi-useless stuff and some cacti! Because we needed something green and alive in the house. We've also settled on adopting a Maine Coon once we've moved. The breed is better for what E wants in a cat (likes to play, super smart, big, etc) and I love 'em anyway so it works for me. In the next month or so we'll start shelter hopping and hopefully we'll find a good fit for our family. I'm still working on fixing some shit. I realized that I live too far into the future now, I'm constantly planning on what comes next instead of being happy with where I am. I think it'll be a hard thing for me to change but not changing is making the people around me unhappy. If that makes sense. There's other stuff but I feel like that is the most relevant right now. Went out to the 'foot last night (like usual) and it was fun. Tonight some of us are going to Ground Kontrol for free play night. The boys are planning on getting some Fallout time in beforehand so I'm trying to think of something fun to make for everyone for dinner. It's nice having the day off to clean and make the bed and cook! It'll be nicer when we move and I have a whole kitchen to myself. I can start baking again! I think that's pretty much the update. I'm trying to get back on board with taking pictures so hopefully those will follow.

3 intentions to break -  some rules are made. [13 Jun 2009|02:57am] NH was boring. Regardless it was nice to see some faces, spend time w my momz, get some stuff off my chest. I'm still glad to be back. Landed Tuesday night, spent time w E and slept. Worked a close on Wednesday then headed out to the Goodfoot with the crew for some eatin', drinkin' and pool playin'. Thursday ran some errands, worked another close and went to Soul Night at Rotture which was pretty fun. Opened this morning so had to leave S.N. early but there's always next month. Got out early (SURPRISE!) and had a nice little afternoon date w E - Bay Leaf for yummy vegetarian/vegan Chinese food and a trip downtown to Powell's Books. Afterwards we went to our new future home so I could meet the new roommate and ch-ch-check it out. It's not perfect but it seems like a good fit and things can be worked out as time goes on. There's also a rumor that he's thinking about leaving in October, meaning we could possibly keep the house and add a roommate. We'll see how things go but there's definitely some potential there. Pedalpalooza started yesterday and tonight I was supposed to roll out to see the bike porn movie and go on a midnight mystery ride but I'm so over-tired I just couldn't go through with it. Went to Reid's instead for a glass of wine and then went to Dot's and another visit to Powell's (twice in one day!). It was fun and super relaxing, nice change of pace. We've all been party animals lately and it's nice that all of us are slowing down and looking for more chill things to do (movie nights!). Tomorrow is the World Naked Bike Ride, which I was planning on riding but it starts at midnight and I've got to open Sunday morning at work. We'll see how I feel. I've got tomorrow off but the room is TRASHED and we need groceries bad and laundry is al piled up. I'm playing it by ear because there's always next year. I'll definitely be riding Bowie vs Prince, Parks to Parks, etcetcetc. Things on most fronts are going well. I've gained some weight back so now it's time to kick into gear and stop the overeating! We've been going out so much lately that I've been eating more than I need to (especially yummy things like greasy bar food) and starting this week I'm going back to my regular diet. Also, the search for a new kitty begins! After we've moved/settled in, we'll be adding a boy kitty to the household. Persian or Himalayan or Maine Coon but we'll see what the shelters have, I don't discriminate :). It's been a promising summer so far and seems to be headed in an even better direction. I couldn't ask for better friends, a better bb, a better kitty. I can't count my blessings enough these days.

1 intention to break -  some rules are made. [08 Jun 2009|04:03pm] I may have been stressing for most of my "vacation" to NH but it all worked out (like it usually does). We got word that we got the new place and can move July 1st. And Evan got the job he applied for. Things are so good.

some rules are made. [25 May 2009|09:57pm] Again, it's been awhile. Things here have been crazy busy and in such a good way. E got here two weeks ago and it's been a blast. The Skunk Crew rocks it out constantly and I can't stress enough how lucky I am to be here and that I am happy. This move has really changed my life and it's still changing. I threw myself a party for my birthday (even though it's not till Friday) and we ended up celebrating Hilary & Reid's birthdays too, so it was super fun. The cops even showed up! And I showed the West Coast how it's done with flipcup. Overall, such a good night and with much thanks to Evan, Jesse, Reid and Desi!!! Woke up the next morning to a large coffee and a whole box of Voodoo Doughnuts from E. SO DELICIOUS! Spent the rest of the day in a lazy haze and then played kickball in some gorgeous weather. Wrapped everything up with burritos at Cha Cha Cha. Seriously one of the greatest weekends of my life. The next few weeks hold lots of work, my actual birthday and a week long trip back to NH! I can tell that I really want to be here when I think about how much I DO NOT want to go visit NH, even just for a week! I'm excited to see all of my friends and my family but there's a lot to miss (and to miss out on!) when I'm not here. Portland is becoming home to me. PICTURES! There are lots more, I'm finally getting some use out of my camera. Check out Facebook albums if you really want to see. There's a picture of me wearing shorts. And they are short. It's pretty strange. Skunk Crew plays Scrabble. My bestie. Pretty much. Happy Birthday Cake! Party time excellent! Happy Birthday Doughnuts! Sunscreen nose!

1 intention to break -  some rules are made. [07 May 2009|09:58pm] It's been awhile and the pictures have piled up! Things on the West Coast have been good. Some issues with money (typical) and some issues with roommates (it was bound to happen) but I've got an awesome group of friends and a good job and only TWO FREAKIN' DAYS until E lands, Saturday at 10.45p and I am counting down hard core. I spend a lot of my time w Desi and I am happy that we make great friends (HOMANCE WHAT) and great co-workers. She's made my transition to my new job much more enjoyable and my move to this state most excellent. I spend most weekends drinking and playing pool. Sundays are for kickball. Life is super good right now, all bad things aside. I finally bought a bike! It's supposedly a KHS frame but who really knows. It's a single speed and it needs work but I'm happy and I'm looking forward to riding it and working on it and making it my dream all pink bicycle. Okay picture update time: SWINE FLU IN DOWNTOWN! My friend Sam sent me this, as seen on 23rd. Too soon? HAHA. A large plexi sign fell on my arm at work about a week ago. This was minutes after it hit. Large bruise. Day two and the bruise is not as red but way more black and blue. Day four of the bruise and ohmygod that's nasty. It's still on my arm but not AS dark. Hopefully by next week it will have faded to almost nothing. I'm sick of people looking at me like I'm a victim of abuse! Desi and her nephew Jackzen. This is the happiest baby I have ever seen/meet/held. He smiles and laughs almost constantly. It made me want one, haha. Desi and Reid at the 'foot, our Winchester. Team Sub-Par lost this game, most likely. Thanks to Desi and her parents, we got to see Star Trek a whole week early! This was waiting in line to get in, it wrapped around the theatre. All Trekkies. I have never felt more out of place! I told Desi I was only there to see Zachary Quinto larger than life and she told me to hush because we would prolly get jumped for not being Trekkies. ONE OF US, ONE OF US, haha. I got me some sweet new Andy Warhol shades on sale for $2.99. They are big but I love 'em! Andddd lastly, I broke down and finally bought some hot pink jeans. My life is slowly becoming 100% pink, I'm so cool. That's about it. I'm gonna relax for a minute and then get ready to head out to MONTAGE with Desi and her boy. Yummy macaroni tonight, yay!

4 intentions to break -  some rules are made. [26 Apr 2009|12:41am] Work has been crazy, I don't even feel like getting into how massive all of those overnights were. Had one day off last week and went to the beach w Desi. Had today off and haven't left the house once. Things have been good, May 9th is just around the corner. I'm still really stressed out about money but let's be honest, when am I not? These were my legs/feet after all those overnights. Cut up, bloody and bruised. Even my toes were bruised! Torpedo thinks the laptop is just another bed for her to sleep on. Except it's heated. Desi, Reid and I split cheese fries at Dot's last night. I love Dot's. And today Torpedo and I shared an ice cream. People tell me this is weird but I think it's a lot less weird than sharing an ice cream with a slobbery dog. This is a bug I found on my hoodie when I was picking up my room today. It sort of freaks me out but I would like help in identifying it.... I think it's getting close to being time for another bang trim. There are more pictures on Facebook, food porn pictures and beach pictures and such. I'm happy to be getting a small group of friends together. My birthday party is gonna be a blast. I am also pretty stoked about finding out that instead of having a measly six TV channels, I have around 70. Apparently all this time I have been plugging into the wrong cable outlet. I am apparently technology stupid. Hey Law & Order reruns, what's up, I missed you. Also, I wanted to add two more plates to my transplant license plate list: Idaho and Pennsylvania. And add another Target location to my how-many-Targets-I've-been-to-list: Tanasbourne @ Hillsboro, OR. TWO WEEKS AND COUNTING. Summer is coming, the liquor is flowing, hell I'm even playing pool again. Life is good.

some rules are made. [17 Apr 2009|07:21am] I've been trying to post more often. I think I am succeeding. No pictures today though. Overnight # 1 was last night and was insane. I got incredibly sick, vomited ten times (no joke, TEN times) and nearly fainted a few times. They made me leave, came home, took a shower and drove right back to work. I'm still unsure as to why I got so sick but all the upchucking sure cleaned out my system. I spent the rest of the night being pretty shaky (and was def behind on my work) but I made it through. Overnight #2 was tonight. I am not incredibly pleased with how my Baby section looks but I tried my best to do what I could with the help I was given. Desi is an awesome person to work with and I'm glad that we get along, I think we'll work very well together. Even though I wasn't happy with my job, I think I'm settling into this new postion. I'm glad I accepted it and I'm happy that I'm back to doing what I love/excel in. Now if only it would go full-time..... I have today off and I need it, things hurt that have never hurt before. I need to sleep and clean up my room and do some organizing/thinking about rearranging. In less than a month there will be an addition to my little home, so I need to make some space. I am 100% stoked. It's really happening, ticket is booked and everything. I have to go grocery shopping too. Eventually. I can't think of anything else to say. I am looking forward to my birthday party. That's about all.

some rules are made. [15 Apr 2009|12:44am] You can hardly see it (it was hard to get close enough) but the rear window of this car says "Just Marriaged". Uhm, WTF? Marriaged? I laughed pretty hard, maybe it's a joke or maybe they really just can't spell. And this is my favourite thing in the world to see, bbgirl all curled up behind my computer. BFFs for life. Spent my day/evening mapping the new store. Building walls, setting fixtures and placing product tomorrow, overnight. Then another overnight to fill in the product and start on visuals. Soft opening on Friday (my day off), grand opening on Saturday but I'll be working at the Adult store, helping them switch over to the old Kids store. PHEW! I also got paid for Easter and picked up two extra days this week. I'm buying a plane ticket tomorrow for May, either the beginning of the month or the end, still TBD. I'm very nervous/excited/happy that things are happening this way. I hope it's good. I want it to be. In other news, it's still freakin' cold almost all the time. Everyone keeps saying how beautiful the summers are and I'm just not seeing it yet. I believe them but I am very impatient.

some rules are made. [12 Apr 2009|09:23pm] Went out with Andschanna a few days ago, this is crossing the bridge into downtown. Things have been okay, I keep getting nasty headaches if I don't drink enough caffeine, it's gross. I get to go map my new store tomorrow and then have crazy overnights all week. Nothing like starting your work day at midnight. Also, for the first time in my life, I have under a dollar to my name. No joke. Hello poverty! At least I get paid Wednesday and my raise kicks in this week too. But who needs money, rent is paid, I have some food and my cat and it's good.

1 intention to break -  some rules are made. [11 Apr 2009|10:38pm] Today sucked until I was driving home from work and some guy honked at me on the highway. I looked over and he's holding a sticker in the outline of NH with a heart in the middle and smiling. I gave him a huge smile back and a thumbs up. For some odd reason, it totally made my day. If things like that happen, I am never switching my plates over.

some rules are made. [05 Apr 2009|01:22pm] I really really really enjoy Portland in the sun. My window was open all night last night and it really feels like spring, I can hear people working in their yards. I ate my lunch outside at work yesterday and will do the same today. I miss the smoker's court at the Rock and the company that came with it but I'm getting used to where I'm at. I've been working a lot lately and drinking way too much caffeine. I made myself sick yesterday because of it, ew. So it's pretty much settled, June is awesome and I'm looking forward to events that will be happening when I come back from NH. Spoke w Hilary about INCONSIDERATE ROOMMATE and we agree on some things. She's walking a thin line for now and we'll see what happens. I like that H and I are on the same page though. We're starting to plan our joint birthday bash, we're gonna have a BBQ in the middle of May. Y'all are invited, of course! Torpedo has been shedding up a storm, it's gross. Well, not really gross, just annoying. I have to vacuum practically everyday. My hair is getting long, I want to get tattooed, I want a bike, I want a new TV and I want it to be June. So basically, I just work all the time to distract myself from things that I want and cannot afford, hah.

some rules are made. [02 Apr 2009|02:20am] things in bullet form because it's easier: - had an interview for an assistant manager position at forever 21. - got the visual merchandiser position for the baby store over at gapkids. - turned down second interview at forever 21 because of the "promotion"/move to gapkids. - still not fulltime but more hours guaranteed and i got a raise. plus, i'm a supervisor again! - made enough money to pay rent and buy some groceries and put gas in my car, yay. - got my vinyl toys and set them all up. my mom threw in some jax and i was a happy kid. - i'm down to 122 pounds and i love that i fit into size 2 pants, even though i'm sure it's still vanity sizing so it's more like a size 6 or something. - they raised liquor prices here, anyone want to mail me some from NH? - may is probably going to be the best month - birthday parties and bbqs and a certain someone coming out (maybe for good?) <3 - went bar hopping w will last weekend and it was fun. hanging out w him & christina is fun, we speak new england and it's like a little piece of home, haha. - maybe going dancing on friday, i'm excited to check out the local electro scene! - my baby brother turned 21 today, holy shit. so all in all, i still have good days and bad days but the summer looks promising, especially if things happen like they are supposed to.

3 intentions to break -  some rules are made. [29 Mar 2009|02:02am] Dear REALLY INCONSIDERATE Roommate: I am totally cool with the fact that you are having friends over. I have friends over late at night all the time. I also get that it's a Saturday night. But sometimes people have to work in the morning, even on a weekend. Because rent needs to be paid, not that you would know much about THAT, as I'm pretty sure you're still behind on rent AND bills from last month. So it's totally cool. Except when it's 11pm and some of your other roommates would like to sleep but can't. Because your LOUD, SUPER RUDE FRIEND can't shut up. And feels the need to scream from the kitchen. I'M ON THE SECOND FLOOR AND I CAN HEAR YOUR ENTIRE CONVERSATION! Just freakin' keep it down. Also, could you please tell said friend that when the bathroom door is SHUT and the light is ON, it generally means that SOMEONE IS USING THE BATHROOM and that a simple knock is nice. INSTEAD OF JUST BARGING IN. And lastly, I KNOW THAT YOU ATE MY ENTIRE FAMILY SIZED BAG OF MEXICAN CHEESE AND I AM STILL WAITING FOR AN APOLOGY OR A REPLACEMENT BAG. No love at all, The upstairs roommate.

2 intentions to break -  some rules are made. [24 Mar 2009|04:37am] Found out Steve died this week. He was in a nasty car accident and was ejected from the car. I remember riding the bus with him in the first grade and he threw gum at Shannon and it got stuck in her hair and their mom had to cut it out. RIP dude. I've been bumming out lately but I know things will get better. I'm pushing hard for a better job and I'm hoping by Friday I'll know about stuff at the Gap. I know that I over think and over worry and over plan. To the point that it makes me physically sick. But at least I know what to do if things go down, I have so many plans and back up plans. Mrs Field's gives away all their cookies at closing time so I scored a huge bag of assorted cookies tonight. I worked an overnight and was a mannequin dressing machine. They love it. I came home to a lovey kitty and a box of art and photos from home. My mom threw in some cookies and chocolate and kitty treats too. It was a nice surprise. I have some photos of recent things but I'm too lazy to upload right now. Been hanging out a lot in Vancouver. And at Dot's. I love Dot's. Went to the Rogue brewery and got drunk off their white rum, shit was strong. I have an interview tomorrow that I sort of want to reschedule but won't. At least I have the rest of the day off. Ting Tings tickets sold out, what a bummer. Downloaded Masterminds (w Vincent Kartheiser <333) and I'm looking forward to watching it. I miss my partner in electro crime a lot. I miss my gay boyfriend a lot. I miss my BOH boys a lot. I miss a lot of things a lot. I'm seriously looking forward to June. Visits are nice. I want to go dancing so bad, hopefully soon. Ground Kontrol on Wednesday (hopefully) cus it's free play night and there's a DJ spinning electro. It should be a party, I'll be drinking Sparks, can't go wrong. I have good days and I have bad days and I'm dealing with everything the best that I can. Which is a lot better than I used to deal with things. Also, I'm getting dangerously broke. It's pretty expensive out here...

some rules are made. [18 Mar 2009|03:56am] Happy St Patrick's Day! I actually made a conscious effort to wear green today and I think that is the first time I've ever done that, haha. Spent the day working and then I went over to Vancouver and hung out with some fun people. Nothing like video games and beers in someone's basement, it was nice. Makes me feel at home and miss home all at the same time! It's almost pretty much official that I'll be in NH from June 2nd to the 9th. Now we've just gotta book the tickets and I have to figure out what to do with Torpedo. I'm excited to see everyone! Drinks and parties and food and sleepovers and awesome friendly faces. I'm sad I won't see Jamie cus he'll already be in St Louis but I'm gonna try to get out there sometime to visit him in his new city. Hopefully I'll have time to head into Boston and see those kids and head out to Beverly and see those kids too. Gonna try to buy tickets to see the Ting Tings tomorrow, crossing my fingers that it hasn't sold out yet. With my luck it has but I'm gonna yell and yell and yell until they sell me some, haha. Work still sucks and I'm still anxiously looking for a second (or better) job. I realllyyy want to go back to Apple but it seems like they're full up and I can only bug the people back home to bug the people out here so much. Oregon just hit 10.8% unemployment too, ouch. I know I'm overthinking and overworrying about things I shouldn't be right now. But I guess that's just how I am. Everything else is good, I made killer homemade burritos last week and I'm making them again tomorrow! Burrito night, yay!

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